Mystic. Writer. Soul Sherpa.
“I want to add to the beauty. Tell a better story. Shine with the light that’s burning up inside.” Sara Groves
Let me share with you a little slice of my journey. Maybe you’ll find yourself here in these words.
After many years being a leader in conservative Christian churches, a mysterious current beckoned me onward and led me away from the institution of the church and the particular confines of the Christian faith, and into the spiritual wilds where I found goodness, love, compassion, joy, and belonging (or they found me!).
The mystical encounters I’ve had over the last two decades have opened up space inside me to sit with my questions and have no answers, and ultimately to follow the path that was leading me to Life, regardless of religion.
The spiritual life, the Divine, God, the Great Spirit, whatever words you choose and spiritual practice you hold are welcome here. My own spiritual journey has taken many twists and turns, as all real journeys do.
There have been deaths and rebirths. Grasping and letting go. Holding on and feeling held.
Transformation. Again and again.
The wonder of this is that fear is no longer my foundation.
I have experienced in the very cells of my body the wonderful, deep, expansive ocean of love in which we exist.
Coming home to myself & the Divine within
After having two precious children, living through PTSD, chronic mysterious illnesses, and dealing with painful generational patterns, the whole paradigm of someone outside of me being the one with the answers – whether that was a doctor, a therapist, a pastor, a guru, a healer – no longer worked for me. The basis of most models of therapy – and organized religions – are the same as what my life’s pattern had been: someone else has the power and what I seek is outside of me. I knew there had to be a way to actually heal the suffering that had been passed down from the generations before me and to stop the cycles from continuing. A part of me had believed this would come from an “expert” for a very long time; but when I became aware of this deeply held belief, another layer of personal and spiritual awakening occurred.
Along my journey, I have found (or they have kindly been brought to me) guides (therapists, shamans, mentors) who have guided me along paths of compassionately moving through the labyrinth of my own soul, inhabiting my body and reclaiming aspects of my being I had long left for lost. They have empowered me to become who I was put on this earth to be!
Over the last decade, I have walked into my own darkness that I once feared would swallow me whole if I actually acknowledged it.
I’ve learned to befriend my shadow self and love even the “negative” parts that make me who I am. There are such amazing treasures to be discovered in what appears to be our darkness.
Deep desire has been my guide and continues to be my teacher. I would’ve never imagined that so much pain and heartache could be transformed into so much goodness, self-compassion and peace!
And everyday I’m coming home more and more to my Self – my essence, my truest nature.
In order to come home to ourselves, we must step off the edges in our lives and into the great unknown. This isn’t a one time event – it will happen again and again. This is the life of faith.
As I’ve come home to myself more and more, my desires to write, paint, sing and create beauty continue to unfold in all sorts of ways. I’ll share my experiences along the way as I see my story as not my own, but as a facet of the larger story – our story. My desire is to add to the beauty, to inhabit a story that co-creates the beauty we all long for.
Growing up and becoming who we really are is perhaps the hardest work we will ever do in this life. Yet with my whole heart I believe that each person can change the world by becoming the person we’re each born to be.
I’m truly honored that you stopped by here,
“The way that a pilgrim travels is to set off for parts unknown. If history’s kind, we’re the ones who may find the way we all come home.” David Wilcox